My life is hard right now. Some days and nights are like running a full marathon without ever crossing the finish line. Wouldn't it be nice if there were a big "You Made It" sign with lots of happy people congratulating you on a job well done every night? Is that what happens after a marathon? I wouldn't know... I've never ran one.
My point is....life sucks sometimes. I tend to end my days with a pity party and a Diet Coke. Not so much with a song sung by Queen and a feeling of accomplishment.
But then I talked to my friend. Her positive attitude while going through divorce made me change my own attitude towards my struggles. The darkness started to fade as I took a look around and noticed the many blessings I do have. I have a husband who loves me and makes me laugh every day. Even if it's just through a text message, because honestly we don't see each other much right now. We miss each other. We want to spend time together. We hate the separation. That right there accounts for a lot.
Now, I could make a list of everything I'm thankful for, but I'll keep it to a minimum for tonight. What I really want to say is I AM blessed. I love my husband, I love my children and I mostly love who I'm becoming because of my challenges in life. I feel my Savior's love for me and know he is aware.
I know we have been protected while Gregg has been in school. My body is weary and my brain is in survival mode, but we are following the path we are suppose to be. One day this time of life will be a small memory. Maybe it will even seem easy compared to what lies ahead. Who knows?
But today I am blessed.